To say he’d ever trusted him would have been a lie.
Even in those days when he’d allowed himself to be vulnerable, smiling foolishly at the sight of that flawless face, he’d never trusted Andrej.
Luscious lips. Sweet and sinful and silly and reflective words all fell from those lips during peaceful mornings as they lied together in a random hotel bed. As they spoke closely in a crowd, those lips close to his ear, whispering, carrying warm breath that smelled of mint. As they made love, lithe form atop his own strong, solid one; words spilling from lips plump from kissing, sucking, licking, biting. Words that always failed to fully express the pleasure he felt inside in those moments.
So many words from those lips.
And those eyes. Eyes that spoke to him when those lips did not. Eyes that so often seemed devious and wanting. Those eyes could be playful, but never innocent, for those eyes had seen too much. And even so, at times they revealed nothing if that were the aim. At times, they could read exactly what Andrej wanted them to read.
“I love you.”
“I need you.”
Even, “ I hate you. “
Even, “I feel nothing for you at all.”
And it had been the latter that he’d at last believed. That was so long ago, or at least so it seemed. Long ago when he still allowed himself to feel such things. Such hurt. Such devastating hurt. How he ever fought his way back, he could not recall.
Perhaps it had been the events that caused his world to move. To rotate to a degree in which Andrej mattered little. But he’d always matter, now wouldn’t he? Because Andrej always appeared, reappeared in his life.
He had many roles, his beauty the key that opened doors. That lowered guards. That coaxed out secrets. That killed.
Often he was the whore of a mogul, tyrant; always some greedy, gritty soul that desired more than this earth could ever provide. Some greedy, gritty soul that felt owning such a gem increased his own worth. And what a gem Andrej was. For he knew himself how that body could make a man feel. How a man could feel unbreakable with that beauty on his arm.
But ‘twas beauty that killed the beast, was it not? And always the blond beauty left death in his wake. Yet there was no good, no bad. Only what one wanted and what they did not want.
What Miles McMillan wanted wasn’t important. What was necessary, however, was. And he’d made the decision with a broken heart. He had decided that he would not contribute any power to delusional men. And in this world, this world that had emerged when mankind lost all desire for pretense of good, this was imperative. It was dire. Crucial.
And it was certainly easy to desire safety. Safety in numbers, they said. Yet Miles walked alone, no trust left in him.
“I do what you do,” those lips had once told him. After that devastating hurt that transformed him. After the fall of all that had been known in the world. There was no ruling government, for those with the ambition had made their own. Territory was wealth and some had more than others.
“I do what you do,” those lips had once told him, “But I do it with a smile.”
Andrej had stolen his smile. And he was the only one who could return it. And yet, Miles would never trust the blond again. It was miserable, loving and hating a single object. No matter whom he bedded, even those with virtue, compassion –qualities Andrej would never possess- it was that distrustful face he would always see as he came.
If only he knew that it was mutual.
For Andrej sought and never found such safety in any other arms. Sought and never found such unconditional love. Sought and never found such a beautifully beating heart. Sought and never found.
Just something I sat down and wrote in a matter of minutes when I got an idea. Not great, not awful, but I said I’d write something this past weekend and didn’t. Hope it helps. Feedback would be great. The pairing ideas I received are definitely still on my mind, fyi.
Mid-terms have killed me lately. Will try hard to get something up this weekend.
how about something featuring unicorns?
Sorry, only humans will be featured. There are several to choose from.
Love, love, love. xD
<3 <3 <3
FEED YOUR FANS, FEED US NOW!
LOL! I certainly will. Thank you.
I'm so happy i found your blog.
Aw, thank you. I’m happy you like it.
Will do! Thanks.
I am looking forward to anything featuring Andrej and Rick *-*
I’m definitely writing something involving the two of them! Thanks for letting me know you have an interest in the pairing.
please, please write more stories. i loved the two one shots. please (: xx
I will. I’ve been busy this week, but I’ll get something up this weekend more than likely. Thanks!